SPRING BREAK!!!!

A lot has not happen this spring break =( i have worked all week but im off for the next 3 days!! WOOT WOOT!!! So my adventure starts today!! Today is Coral's bday and ill be hanging with her for dinner and tomorrow is sarah's good bye party=( Not much has happen.. Im ready for summer for some summer vacation!!!!

I have Picked up a hobby it is called loom knitting.. Lots of fun!!

Thinks have been good with the family!! Yay!!

Work sucks!! Need a new JOB!!! asap!!

To be continued...

History

This is a little rant... I hate history!! i am sitting in my history class wanting to walk up and leave.. I really dont like my teacher... maybe that is why i hate this class.... that is all..

-Meekk

Scripture Studies

Since i have been back home my mother has started scripture studies for the family and we are studying the book of mormon. I cant tell you how it has already been a blessing studying to gether as a family. I enjoy it very much. Also things are going good at home. I have been here a week and have not fought with my parents or siblings. I have helped my mom around the house =)
I truly beleive that things are going great b/c of my scripture studies. I know it wont always be like this but i knoww i can pull through.. I Do miss my grandma a lot =( im actually thinking of going down to roswell for sprink break. I miss our movie dates, going out to eat, hanging out etc. I also miss my apt!!but im liking being at home =)

I also think im coming closer to my sister and this is a shocker. I have got to spend quality time with her and i enjoy it. She may not know this but i love her and love the time we spend together... Even though she can be a brat..

School is supper hard and im struggling.. My education class requires a lot of time and effort..
Well this week has been a blessing and im looking foward for the weekend =)

GROWING UP IS HARD TO DO!!!!

Ok so this me growing up thing i say no to!! NO NO NO!!!!
What happen to those times that i was playing with my cousin
and we played house. truth or dare, playing at the park and
with barbies and dolls.. Where did those days go?? I kinda
Miss them. I dont wanna grow up.. Lol.. The fact is i need
to grow up.. I have learned so much in the past few years.

Well the past 2 yrs i lived with my grandma who i love dearly!!
Things came up and she had to move back to alien town! =(
BOO!!! I understand she had to but it is so depressing with
her not her.. Like really im mopping around sad about it=(
Ill get over it and ill be ok. It will just take some time geting
use to her not being here.

Welp im back in my parents home=D!! Hopefully not for long!!
I hope i can find a better job or get MARRIED???? hmmm
Im 24 and i need to move into my own place by myself or with
roommates. I need and want this experience but i have so much holding
me back.. Better Job, money. fear, etc. Hopefully things will work out
and if i apply myself and do it then anything can happen..

The world out there is fare game and i wanna take it on.
I wanna live life, travel, do something crazy with my girls!!

I love my family and as much as i know that they
love me, im not ment to be here.. I am hoping this
will be for a while..

This maybe a good thing.. I can help my mom and
become closer and bond with my siblings.

As much as i cried for my grandma and miss her
and as much as i love my family.. it is about that
time.....

Meekayla D. Montoya it is time to GROW UP!!!

So im puttin my big girl pants on!!!

My Testimony

Today was fast Sunday. Once of the best times of the year. I love the first Sunday of each month and this Sunday was one of the best days of my life (11/07/10) Today my brother gave is testimony and it was really good! I loved hearing it.. I havent heard his testimony in a long time i was glad to hear it again today. I also brought my friend Lori to church and she really enjoyed it. It is hard for me to explain the gospel b/c it is so much to take in and so much to learn but i know it is true. She loved it and loved everyone there. She said a could of times "im gonna convert". It made me happy! Tomorrow she is comeing to FHE, Tuesday meeting with the missionaries, and coming back to church on  Sunday again.. I hope she excepts the gospel it is true and her life with be blessed. Im very excited for her and we havent even got to step 1..

I bare my Testimony that i know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the true church and i know the book of Mormon is true and is another testimony of Jesus Christ. I know my heavenly father loves me and i know that Thomas S. Monson is a true prophet of God. I beleive in my church and know these things are true. I know i am blessed by following to be more like him. I say these things Humbling in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

Time

I feel like i am drowning.. I cant breathe.. I feel moments and time are passing by. Im in a dark room with no way out... I feel Satan working on my family. I want to run outside and scream "LEAVE ME ALONE". Why can it be that easy? "The devil never wins without a fight."

My mind going around in a circle

I have not written since my wonderful vacation in BEAUTIFUL WISCONSIN!! Honestly I have no idea what I want to say or write.. I’m not the best writer.. My grammar is terrible and my spelling is awful. lol






So lately I have been thinking about this thing we call “life” what is it? What is the meaning? I know why I am here.. I am here to learn grow and to return back to my Father in heaven. But I feel like life has passed me by.. I feel like I haven’t lived it.. I have so many regrets but I try not to regret the things I have done because I have learned from them. Back to life.. Not only have I had life in my mind but I have had death also in mind. Long story short a guy got shot and killed at a club here in Lubbock.. He was young 22 it was his birthday weekend… I think to myself man I could have been there.. I use to go to that club all the time.. Why did my father in heaven take a young persons life?? My biggest fear is to dying.. I don’t wanna die young I want to LIVE till im 80!! I think about that weekend and what i was doing the night that all this  happen. That weekend I was listening to the Prophet and his counsel. That night I was at a friends house for a girls night.. I know my heavenly father loves me and I love him so much, but some times I wonder if you really listen to me… I am actually ashamed to admit it but I do. I try not to doubt him but it is so hard and I think a of it is Satan.. He wants me to lose my faith and the bond that I have with my heavenly father.


The other thing that has been on my mind is my dad. I love him so much and wish and pray that he will Join the church.. I know he knows it’s true and sometimes want to ask him “why deny what you know to be true?” I guess I don’t because of fear. It saddens me that I don’t have an eternal family. I know one day I will have my own but I would love to have one with my parents..