My Testimony

Today was fast Sunday. Once of the best times of the year. I love the first Sunday of each month and this Sunday was one of the best days of my life (11/07/10) Today my brother gave is testimony and it was really good! I loved hearing it.. I havent heard his testimony in a long time i was glad to hear it again today. I also brought my friend Lori to church and she really enjoyed it. It is hard for me to explain the gospel b/c it is so much to take in and so much to learn but i know it is true. She loved it and loved everyone there. She said a could of times "im gonna convert". It made me happy! Tomorrow she is comeing to FHE, Tuesday meeting with the missionaries, and coming back to church on  Sunday again.. I hope she excepts the gospel it is true and her life with be blessed. Im very excited for her and we havent even got to step 1..

I bare my Testimony that i know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is the true church and i know the book of Mormon is true and is another testimony of Jesus Christ. I know my heavenly father loves me and i know that Thomas S. Monson is a true prophet of God. I beleive in my church and know these things are true. I know i am blessed by following to be more like him. I say these things Humbling in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

Time

I feel like i am drowning.. I cant breathe.. I feel moments and time are passing by. Im in a dark room with no way out... I feel Satan working on my family. I want to run outside and scream "LEAVE ME ALONE". Why can it be that easy? "The devil never wins without a fight."

My mind going around in a circle

I have not written since my wonderful vacation in BEAUTIFUL WISCONSIN!! Honestly I have no idea what I want to say or write.. I’m not the best writer.. My grammar is terrible and my spelling is awful. lol






So lately I have been thinking about this thing we call “life” what is it? What is the meaning? I know why I am here.. I am here to learn grow and to return back to my Father in heaven. But I feel like life has passed me by.. I feel like I haven’t lived it.. I have so many regrets but I try not to regret the things I have done because I have learned from them. Back to life.. Not only have I had life in my mind but I have had death also in mind. Long story short a guy got shot and killed at a club here in Lubbock.. He was young 22 it was his birthday weekend… I think to myself man I could have been there.. I use to go to that club all the time.. Why did my father in heaven take a young persons life?? My biggest fear is to dying.. I don’t wanna die young I want to LIVE till im 80!! I think about that weekend and what i was doing the night that all this  happen. That weekend I was listening to the Prophet and his counsel. That night I was at a friends house for a girls night.. I know my heavenly father loves me and I love him so much, but some times I wonder if you really listen to me… I am actually ashamed to admit it but I do. I try not to doubt him but it is so hard and I think a of it is Satan.. He wants me to lose my faith and the bond that I have with my heavenly father.


The other thing that has been on my mind is my dad. I love him so much and wish and pray that he will Join the church.. I know he knows it’s true and sometimes want to ask him “why deny what you know to be true?” I guess I don’t because of fear. It saddens me that I don’t have an eternal family. I know one day I will have my own but I would love to have one with my parents..

WISCONSIN VACATION 2010!!!!!!!

All vacations must come to an end =( We are leaving tomorrow =(. I think this vacation with my family has been the best one ever!! I had a wonderful time with my family!!!

Thursday at 730 am
I went to bed around 2 and woke up around 5, dad had made wheat pancakes! YUM! We finally left around 730. I slept most of the way. We stopped in Kansas to eat pizza and let the dogs go potty. We then stopped in Iowa were people are RUDE and not very smart!! Hello New Mexico is a state!!!  We finally made it to Wisconsin Friday at 730!! Yup it took us 24 hours to get here; we didn't do much just relaxed.

Friday
We went on a boat ride on my uncle Dan's boat! The lake and view was so beautiful or as mom says breath taking. I think that's all we did was enjoy nature. Heavenly father is good to us by giving all this beauty to us.

 The rest of our trip we spent in town. We went to see horses!! It was so fun!! We saw baby horses and mini. horses they are SOO CUTE!!!

While we were here i was on a search for Amish folks. I found them!! They are so nice and make the BEST maple syrup! They sold us eggs for a buck a dozen!!! The Amish are really interesting i love their culture.

One of the best parts about this trip was bonding with my sister last night. All the family went to the lake and my sister and I stayed behind. I always take advantage of time like this when it is my sister and I. All we did was play card games and talked to each other about stuff. As much as i don't show it i love my sister, she is my only sister. We are very different she is a leader and I'm a follower, she is oil and i am vinegar. Even though we are different we are still and always will be sisters. I cherish that and thank my heavenly father for giving her to me as my little sister. Love you Vik...

My parents are one of the best parents. I am glad they chose to come to Wisconsin instead of traveling in Texas. This was a fun trip!! Hey we didn't fight as much!! I am very grateful for my mom and dad.

My Tia nena was very nice and sweet!! She took care of us well!! Thank you for your hospitality! She is very nice and care. She doesn't have a mean bone in her! Thank you Tia for letting us stay in your home! I enjoyed visiting with you and getting to know you!

Well tomorrow we will be heading back to Texas..... Back to reality!!1 BOO....

Bucket listI think

This past week was a good week. So this week for our relief society activity we learned about  food storage. I think it is very important that everyone should have food storage because the second coming is coming soon. It might not be now, next year, or 10 years from now. It is important that we prepare. Sunday i attended Church all day! Yay!! Go me!!! One of the talks talked about sacrifices. Even though i hate it!!!!! I will sacrifice like out heavenly father did. Sunday was really good the talks were awesome and  relief  society was about the Atonement. It really has open my eyes i learned more about the atonement. My visiting teachers and home teachers both saw me last week. My VT talked about the sacrament i really enjoyed that lesson. My HT talked about sacrifices. Ok heavenly father i get it!!! Last night we had dinner at Allison's, we had pasta!!! It was so much fun. I am very grateful that i have changed my life if i had not i would have not been in a room full of girls laughing till midnight. I am the happiest i have ever been and I'm glad my life is in the right direction. In my P.B. It talks about a mission i wounder if i should do it and if it right for me??....


So i made a bucket list just for fun. more will be added as time goes by

1. Jump out of a plain
2. Laugh so hard i pee in my pants
3. Somo for 25 hrs
4. travel to Italy
5. Take a girls road trip some where far
6. Finish The Book of Mormon
7. Go to confrence in SLC
8. Learn how to ride a Harley Davison Bike!
9. Meet Stephanie Myers *
10. Meet Oprah *

Addictions. Commandments. Changes.

So today was a fun adventure. I woke up went to the gym and went swimming. When i was at the pool this lady started to talk to me out of know were, i was polite and spoke with her and as she was talking to me she told me she was from FL and moved to Lubbock to take care of her parents and that her daughter and bone cancer and she was in stage 4. She told me the doctors are better here and she was happy to be of service to her parents and daughter. She told me i want them to be happy and enjoy the time they have here. Before she left i told her she was a very strong woman! When she left I said a little prayer and asked that her and her family will be blessed.







I fulfilled some of my goals today! YAY!! I went to taco Tuesday. It was fun to be around people who like me and care for me. I didn’t eat because i ate with grandma at logans. Yes be jealous! I went to institute tonight it was such an amazing time. The spirit was defiantly there! We talked about god’s commandments and temptations and self control. While in this class I reflected on everything in my past. I was really looking back on how much I have changed and grown. I am very happy where I am at in my life right now. I was so stubborn then. I am most in debt to the ones who made an effort to talk to me or invite me places when I didn’t want to be at church. I remember Stephanie would always ask how I was and always told me hi! Allison who saw me at work and invited me to church, and of course brother Merrill who always asked about me when my mom went to church.






I am very grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am grateful for my church leaders and our stake presidency who is an amazing man.






"Let us never forget to pray. God lives. He is near. He is real. He is not only aware of us but cares for us. He is our Father. He is accessible to all who will seek Him." Gordon B. Hinckley

06.22.10

OK so this is my first time blogging and i have no idea what I'm doing or what to say really.... I do know i want everyone to love life; it is very important and people should enjoy it. I was watching a friends YouTube video and he was talking about having bad days, pretty much it was about not to dread on the bad things that are happening but be happy. I totally agree with this. What is the point of being mad? Why do we get mad? All it does is bring us anger and unhappiness. A goal i am setting for myself is not to get mad about the little things. I was so mad sunday! I had to work that day and had to close! I was so angry and in a bad mood, after thinking about it i thought it was point less to be mad so the next day i went to work with a smile on my face and i was happy. I need to read my scrpitures mor often and pray more i know my heavenly father loves me and he knows what is best for me im just scared what he has in store or me or what he wants me to do. Before i end this im ending with goals i have for this week.

1. work out 3 times this week

2. Eat healthy

3. Love life

4. Read scriptures.
5. Pray
6. No fighing with the family
7. call my girls that i VT
8. say something nice to someone i dislike
9. Play SOMO!!!
10. BE HAPPY, BE GREATFUL, and BE HUMBLE!!!!!!